This post is mostly for me! Sorry!
Tomorrow is my last final for the semester and it’s the first time that I’ve actually tried to recall all that has happened to me these past few months. There have been so many emotions-happiness, misery, embarrassment, pride, love-I could literally go on forever. I’m currently listening to “between the lines” by sara bareilles, so this post could get emotional.
I feel like I have grown more over this semester more than I have my entire life. I’ve opened up to people more than I normally would, and I don’t think I’ve ever felt so loved by people before, other than my family. Not only have people actually told me that that love me, but I’ve finally become comfortable telling others that I love them, and that is something that is taken for granted every day, and it makes me feel so good to be able to tell people how much I value them. I love the people that I am surrounded by everyday, for all that they are. Villanova really has become my second home and I am so happy to say how much I love it here.
I’m a member of the Villanova Haveners A Cappella group and have been given the honor of musical director for the 2012-2013 year, and I could not be more proud of us. We sound incredible and have become such a family-the Haveners are definitely one of my favorite parts of school, I am literally obsessed with them and all of a cappella.. my friends at Nova can vouch for me, haha. There is something so exhilarating about organically re-creating a song that takes 16 people to produce. It totally rejuvenates my love for music but in a completely different way, and I’m so grateful for this alternate perspective. Now, there is so much more to music than there used to be, and it’s such a wonderful gift that I wish everybody had passion for.
Living life in Fedigan has been so great. It’s not unlikely for us to have random dance parties or for me to be working out at obscene hours of the day while my roommate is sleeping. I LOVE my roommate, so much. She means so much to me and has taught me so much this year, and I am so grateful to live with her, especially because we know exactly how to make each other laugh and get distracted when we’re trying to sleep. My other roommates across the hall are amazing, they always put up with me waltzing in and bothering them whenever, and give me free tea, and are just overall amazing people. I miss my friends in the quad :( it’s sad that we were wrong when we said being across campus wouldn’t keep us apart because I feel like it has-just because we’ve been so busy. I have been swamped with work, and so have they, but junior year in an apartment together is going to be so great, I can’t wait.
Engineering is SO awesome! Literally everyday I have a nerdgasm and can’t wait to learn about something cool and new that a professor is working on or that we learn about in class, and it’s only going to get more involved as college progresses. We’re still in the early stages, I’m currently avoiding studying for statics, but it’s gonna be great, and I love it so far. Nothing like going into the workshop to get your hands all greased up and smell like sawdust for hours!
My love life? Currently non-existent. Well, I’ve got my eye on this super awesome and great guy but I have no idea what is going on with him, so I really just want to avoid getting my hopes up. Fingers crossed. :D
I feel GREAT. I’m feeling really tired and delirious and burnt out and anxious to go home yet sad to leave people but still wanting to go home. That made no sense? My life makes no sense right now, and even though the ambiguity stresses me out, I’m happy. I’m surrounded by love and couldn’t ask for anything more right now, except maybe some clarification in the romance department. I can’t wait to go home and see friends and family, and work on arrangements for Havs as well as my own musical endeavors.
Who am I kidding, I’m most excited to cook and be a lazy bum for a few days first.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!